I want you to know that I did not feel deprived

There was no coffee pot on the stove, no coffee maker on the counter. There was no smell of coffee to wake us in the morning and no reason to sit around the kitchen table mid-afternoon. And we considered ourselves normal. The coffee was weak and tasteless and drenched with half and half and sugar.
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Gretta:
Besides that, I'm not even sure how you ask a girl out.
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
Almost cheated should I forgive?
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
I just thought we were so much more.
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
Clearly it was a temporary thing though.
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
I feel like I may have already lost him the moment his mind wandered.
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
The woman didn't even know his real name or that he had kids.
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
Our love was like fairy tales on caffeine to me.
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
I know there are other men who would of never done this to me.
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
But if he felt even a flicker of the fire I feel for him would he of ever done this?
(2 October 2016)

Earleen:
I almost want to kill myself I am in such turmoil, and Im not a weak minded person.
(2 October 2016)