I stand in front of you for one last blissful moment of ignorance

Although quite full already, you had room for one final load of succulent holiday necessities. You hummed merrily as I organized, shifted, sorted, and adjusted. I stepped back to admire the sight of you. In that ambrosial moment, the connection between us was nothing short of electric.
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Laila:
Why does my friend stare at me?
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
I feel like I don't fit in my boyfriends lifestyle. He has expensive taste, pricey hobbies, multiple vehicles. ?
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
It just seems immature to split with someone cause they are more fortunate.
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
There's just a lot of bad dynamics right now.
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
I live in my own household and he lives at home with his parents where I haven't been welcome for 2 years.
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
A lot of woman have have financially supportive partners.
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
If he really wanted me in his life wouldn't he be more chivalrous?
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
It makes me feel like a total scrub.
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
I know my life or my daughters isn't his responsibility but it just feels like I don't fit.
(15 January 2017)

Jinny:
I go without a lot of things to be able to get by.
(15 January 2017)