But this also means seeing her in any type of pleasure is arousing to me

One, like you said, the breaking of trust that would most likely happen in a real world scenario. Personally, I get more pleasure seeing her in pleasure, than the physical act of sex. Like many say, the brain is the largest sex organ, and the mental pleasure far exceeds the physical pleasure.
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Suzette:
But I hate being the wishy washy person who goes back on her word.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
I feel like there's no one else who will love me as much or understand me as much as my ex did.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
He's super sweet, but I keep thinking of my ex when I'm with him.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
Since I've gotten to where I am now, I met this new guy who I kind of like and has taken me out a few times.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
We didn't fight or anything, but we're just distant now.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
We haven't talked much since then, and I'm dying to just reach out to him and see how he is.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
He was really upset when I broke up with him and he kept begging me to rethink things and I just said no.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
And I honestly feel so lost without him.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
But the thing is, we had been together since the summer before 8th grade.
(22 August 2016)

Suzette:
I broke up with him at the beginning of the summer because I feel like our ultimate life plans are very different and I don't want either of us to feel tied down while we begin our new chapters in life.
(22 August 2016)